Actors fears NO.135
Actors fears NO.135 So today my heart’s exploding. It does this sometimes, rakes itself over the hot coals of traumas of the past and fears for the future and dives headfirst into all the feels and that’s ok, well it’s not, it’s a physical release that’s indicative of a lot of pain I haven’t processed and a lot of things I desperately need to address and change in my life but that’s not the point today, the point is, ok, this happens sometimes but what do I do when it happens on a day like today? You see, I’m actually attached to a show at the moment and we’re on tour this weekend and it’s a good show, no it’s a great show with an amazing cast and crew that I have loved every second of working with but when my heart goes boom like this it leaves me, firstly, exhausted, numb and emotionally dry and secondly, automatic defence systems kick in and bury all those ‘feels’ deep down to allow me to survive and function, like antibodies dispatched to sterilise an open...